Encouragement

Lately, I've been feeling kinda down. I've been dealing with some health issues that I thought I wouldn't  have to deal with until I was in my 50's if even then. I finally had my gastroenterologist appointment yesterday and got some answers. Not the answers I wanted, but considering how much worse all the other answers are, I'm very thankful for the answers that I did receive. (I know I'm being very vague and I apologize for that. It's just all kinda yuck-o.) I was on the phone with my Mom yesterday afternoon, explaining everything to her to the best of my ability and got worked up about it all. It finally hit me. I was sick and tired of being sick and tired, of spending all day marathons in the doctors offices, of putting my paychecks directly towards co-pays and medicine. I didn't want to think about it or deal with it anymore, so I excused myself and got off the phone. I sent a text apologizing and my Mom replied... "Your body. You control it. A dr's diagnosis doesn't. I won't a accept a life sentence for my daughter. I see you whole." DISCLAIMER - She makes it sound a lot worse that it is but at that time I was too so I needed that encouragement. I had spent the first half of the day at the doctor, the second half at work, the third half (yes, I know that there can't be a third half - but yesterday was a long day and a third half happened), working again with another family. Mom continued to encourage,
"You're amazing. Be calm calm calm always. No matter what keep the inside calm even if you are yelling for your life. There's a power we trust so we don't have to worry."
....By the time I got that text I was at work, tears came to my eyes - not in pity for myself, maybe in embarrassment for thinking the way I did, but mostly in pure awe of the wisdom of my mother. William, the 6 year old with autism, saw me and responded with a hug, which made the tears actually run down my cheek.

Thank you Mom (and William) and Katie.
Not to leave my sister out... When I got home from work, I updated her. She responded with the most ... touching? disheartening? Erm.. Thought-provoking and encouraging story. And we cried. again.

I LOVE this picture of my Mom. It was the day I got my new bike; she took it for a testdrive.

This kid makes me smile. always. In this picture, he makes me crack up. 

  

So, I'll leave you with my new favorite quote,

"Be calm calm calm always. No matter what, keep the inside calm even if you are yelling for your life. There's a power we trust so we don't have to worry."